筆記「來自自身存在本質的喜悅」Notes on Joy from Your Own Being

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一開始老師提到，今天的主題是「來自自身存在本質的喜悅」。老濕提到特別選擇這個主題是因為我們越來越會被指派或被要求要將我們自己沈浸在虛擬世界及所有屬於那個世界的一切，而我們應該要找到我們自身的喜悅並在那個世界中活出我們自身內在的喜悅。那個虛擬世界讓我們忘掉了喜悅事實上是來自我們的自身內在。

老師接著說道，我們習於處在外在的喜悅來源或追尋外在喜悅來源，例如：食物、渡假、賺錢、有個不錯的伴侶、我們的孩子，等等任何可以在我們的生活帶給我們喜悅的事物。我們運用他們的原因是這些面向與我們非常親近，而我們非常享受他們。但同時，這導致了我們對這些面向的依附，而不是去找到不會造成依附的自身內在喜悅。

接著是第一個練習，練習的目的是幫助我們，找出我們向其尋求喜悅的這些外在源頭所在。

這個練習用到手印。你將你的左手食指放在身體上的肚臍，不是臍輪，而右手的食指與中指像個V字型般，夾住左手食指，兩手都在身體層次上。

接著你緩慢的將兩手分開，維持在身體層次而緩慢向兩側移動，直到身體後方，指尖停在腎臟上面。

練習完老師分享自身的經驗，老師提到，他已經好幾年都注意到，外在事物並不怎麼能夠帶給他喜悅，或那只是他早期的喜悅源頭的一部分，所以這個練習對他有趣且有益的是，老師看到，對老師而言，喜悅並不來自於外在，對老師而言，並沒有外在的喜悅源頭，這也意味著對老師而言，他並不太被外在世界試圖帶給他的事物所影響。

第二步是數字箴言 77197718 的冥想。這會幫助我們找到來自我們內在存在本質的喜悅所在，並讓它們顯露出來，這些喜悅可能在任何能量體的任何地方，從身體到所有能量體都有可能。所以這個練習幫助我們看到它們。

練習完老師分享提到，很棒的感覺，能讓這些遺忘的部分回到面前，即使他本來就知道這些部分，但這就像這些部分從背後被拉到了前面顯現，像是吹肥皂泡，就像小孩吹肥皂泡，出現小泡泡形成的噴泉。其中最棒的部分是，他重新發現在關係中變成人質的喜悅部分，也就是只有當我將我的喜悅給你，而你感到喜悅，然後我才能喜悅，這樣的狀況，而非是我的喜悅是我的，你的喜悅是你的。所以老師說感到美好的是，能夠釋放掉這些喜悅人質，而能夠允許他自己感受自身獨有的喜悅，而不依附在他的伴侶是否感到喜悅這樣的情境。

最後老師幫大家點化，讓我們自身獨有的喜悅，成為我們生活中活生生的喜悅，我們不再能避開我們自身獨有的喜悅。

點化完，老師分享說道，很有趣的是，外在喜悅就像是位於我們頂輪的螺絲鬆開了，所以我們只能感受到外在的喜悅，而無法與天生、內在而出自存在本質的自身喜悅連結。而老師在點化中，將螺絲再次栓緊。

最後老師提到，下次工作坊是九月十七日，題目是「來自愛的領導力」。

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The topic today is 'Joy form our Own Being'. And Agni said he pick up the topic specifically because more and more we are tasked or asked to immerse ourselves into the virtual world and everything that belongs with it and that we should, are also supposed to,  find our joy and live our joy from within that world. And Agni says that makes us forget that the joy actually comes from within us.

Agni shared, that we are used to outside sources of Joy or for Joy, and using them like, you know, food, going on vacation, making money, having a great partner, our children, whatever there is that brings us joy in our life, that we use, because these aspects are very close to us, and we enjoy them very much. But at the same time, this leads to dependency on these aspects, instead of finding Joy within us which does not lead to dependency. 

We will just just into first exercise, and this serves the purpose for us to find out where are these outside sources that we turn to for joy.

This first part is a mudra. You put your left index finger physically on your navel, your physical navel, not the navel chakra, and the right hand , index and middle finger take that left finger, like, in that V, okey, So this is both physically, 

And then you slowly start pulling them apart, you stay on the physical body and you  slowly move them across your body until both of them lay on the kidneys in the back.

Okey, so now it has to be very uncomfortable because, Agni, you know him, so you just pull and your fingertips lay on the kidney, so you're, you just try not to break your hands, Okey.

Conversation:

[Agni] it's really comfortable.

[MaRa] No it's not, no it's not, I don't think you're doing it right, but  it's okay, we're gonna do it, anyway, 

[Gandha] It's like this?

[Agni] Yes, it's like this and then there's no turning, but for me it's not turning, I don't know. 

[MaRa] On that path, you find these outside sources of joy. 

[Agni] They shine up, you recognize.

[MaRa] Okay, go ahead

[Agni] For the outside sources become recognizable, like they lighten up their... become visible. 

[Gandha] okay, but it will be in our aura or body?

[Agni] You will see what the outside sources are.

[MaRa] Wherever they show it for you.

[Gandha] Okay, got it , okey.

[Agni] OK, let's do it.

Agni shared like, his sharing like, what he noticed, he's been noticing that for himself for years now, for a couple of years now, that there's really not that much on the outside that brings him Joy, or that is part of his early source of his Joy, so it was interesting and good for him to see that in this exercise also, Joy does not come from outside for him, there's no outside Joy source for him, so that also means he's not very much affected about what the outside is trying to offer him.

The second step is a meditation with the Mantra 77197718, which is also in the chat already. And this help us to locate the sources of joy within our own being and make them visible and they can be anywhere in any body from the physical through all the energy bodies. So this step that really  serves this purpose, just to make them visible for us. 

So Agni obviously had a lot of Joy, yes, his sharing. And he said it was really a great feeling to have these forgotten parts, these forgotten sources of joy within him to come back to the forefront, even though obviously he already knew about them, but like, it's like, they were pulled like from behind him from his back, back to the front to become visible again, and it was like a little bit like having soap bubbles, like blowing bubbles, like, you know, when children blow bubbles, so this kind of joy is like he had all these fountains of little soap bubbles. And he said one of the best parts that he rediscovered was the joy that was held hostage in relationships, I can only or I give my joy to you, so then when you have joy, I can also feel joy, instead of saying , okay, my joy is mine and your joy is yours. So he said it felt so good to release these joy hostages and to allow himself to feel his own joy without being dependent on his partner feeling joy. 

So what Agni will do in this initiation is to make the sources of our own joy, the key points, in living joy in our life. So that we cannot avoid our own joy anymore.

IF somebody does not want to receive this initiation, because it's very undemocratic and Agni said maybe they should leave now.

Agni shared that it was really funny to some degree because this joy, the outsourced joy represented itself as loose screw in our lotus chakra, so that we can only feel like these outside sources of joy and that we were not connected with our natural state of joy, which is our inside sources, our own being , as the source of our joy. Ｓo all Agni did was he tightened the screws again, which tells us ho he's such a great handyman.

Conversation:

[Agni] the screw is that big. 

[Gandha] Sorry, I need to clarify, so this screw help us to only feel our  energy, inner source, right? not from outside, is it?

[MaRa] Yeah, now that he's tightened it, we're connected again to this inner source, Okay.

So the next workshop is on September 17th, the topic is 'rulership from love'.